It has been a while since I have posted to this blog and it is because sometimes life gets in the way. Mine became all-consuming and I started to drift off into a place where I felt detached from myself. I was just a robot doing what needed to be done and existing but not living. The more time away from writing, the more I became detached. Words are my life! My goal is to get it back and focus on what matters “MOST”, hence, the title Re-Visioning.
I have my students revise their drafts because sometimes it lacks focus, purpose, or careless mistakes have been made. Some drafts are beautifully written but can be taken to the next level. That is how I explain it when they ask why they have to revise.
Life can be revised. Sometimes we get into a pattern where we lose focus, purpose and make careless mistakes. Sometimes we are at the top of our game but just need to switch gears and try something new.
I am at that point. I am re-visioning my life and doing what works for me and mine (my household). My goal of getting published this year did not occur because I drifted and got caught up in existing. Do not let this happen to you and if it does, know that you can switch gears. A new year is coming but more importantly a new day. It doesn’t matter how far down the wrong path you have traveled, as long as you stop and turn around. We can constantly recreate the life that we want for ourselves. We can constantly revise our plans when thrown a curve ball. We can re-vision our purpose. It is never too late. What I will not do is look back another 10 years from now and ask “Why didn’t I even try?”
Notice how the words in the first part of the title begin with uppercase letters until the end? That is how I feel about jogging which I have been contemplating for the past 6 months (it’s really been a year but that sounds pitiful). There is something that keeps telling me to go out there and do it but for some reason I can come up with every excuse in the world. Here are some of the runners-up:
1. I will look like a fool
2. I will have an asthma attack ( haven’t had one since kindergarten)
3. I am deathly afraid of wildlife (I am originally from NYC so all animals are considered wildlife) especially deer, raccoons, foxes, snakes, possums, etc
4. I do not have the right gear nor can I afford it at the present time
And the grand prize winner of all my excuses:
It’s bad on the knees (this is the only one that is supported by some scientific research…i think)
Anyway at some point, and it has to be soon because I have been eating a lot better and trying to make my health my priority, I will have to try it. And by try, I mean actually commit to a running routine for at least a few months (hopefully it will turn into a lifestyle change). I have seen the benefits in some of my close friends and co-workers. They dropped a lot of weight and handle stress a lot better. They also are eating healthy and feel sick when they can’t run/jog (at first I rolled my eyes when they said this).
So, I will let you know how this pans out and when I actually start. I’ve decided to try the couch-to-5K program and continue to eat healthy. My goal is to be healthy, lose weight, stress less, and live long.
Below is a picture of how I think I will look and then one of how I would like to look: